MMS : Day 20 ~ Stasis

20 drops activated MMS (Keavy's) = 10 drops activated standard MMS, total of 10 doses.

We stayed at 10 drops (henceforth shall be writing in terms of standard MMS) today, will prolly stay here at 10 drops for another day before (cautiously) ramping up to 11 drops the day after tomorrow. 

I suspect it's not so much Herxing but Jojo swallowing too much air when he's gulping down the morning MMS doses.  The air enters his tummy, makes him burp and regurgitate the MMS. Still... it's better to err on the side of caution.

Not a bad day for Jojo today. Generally calm but not languid.  Short, intermittent bursts of annoyance whilst at his gran's.

Enema: 

Given at 6pm -- 20 drops MMS in 1 litre. Seems to be able to take in and hold in more for a little bit longer than usual.  I haven't come to the point where I am "poop diving" yet, so I don't really know if there are any parasites coming out on the MMS oral and enemas alone.

I'm kinda keen though, to finally confirm my 'suspicions' that Jojo does indeed suffer from parasite infestation. However I will need to reach max dose of MMS (i.e. 26 drops) for Jojo's weight before I can start the PP. Since each month's PP begins 2 days before the full moon and is therefore at a specific time, I can only jump on the wagon next month, In shaa Allah.  Hopefully would have safely reached max dose by then.

Sleep:

Beautifully peacefully.  I notice that he sleeps very well on days when he gets an enema.  Kerri suggests daily enemas, so I shall follow from now on.

MMS : Day 19 ~ Herxing

Supposed to be 22 drops Keavy's MMS = 11 drops standard MMS, total of maximum number of doses I could get in him, it being the weekend and all... if everything had been all right.

However, Jojo started vomiting about 30 minutes after the first dose, which I gave him at 6:30am.

He had stormed into our bedroom, giggling and laughing (the yeasty kind), exuberant and besides himself with glee at 6:30am.  God only Knows how long he had been up for or whether he had a slept a wink the night before.  (I didn't rewind the CCTV footage to check.)

He threw up twice this morning (not the projectile, Linda Blair kind as some have noted when their child Herx-es on MMS, thank the Lord) after which I stopped the day's dosing.

Tomorrow I go back to the number of drops where he didn't vomit, stay there for a few days before ramping up again.  I had expected this Herxheimer's reaction but prolly not as soon as this.

As much as I am keen to reach max dose so that we can start Kalcker's Parasite Protocol on time next month, it is important not to stress him or make him suffer (any more than he already has).

There are reason I don't allow comments on this blog.

It's almost like a private journal/diary of Jojo's MMS journey.  It just happens to be online.  I need a place where I can keep track of the number of drops given and on what days.  I need to keep a record of the observations I make, the reaction he has towards a particular dose or frequency of dosing.  I need to see a 'pattern', if there is one, of his reaction towards the oral doses, enemas and baths.

As such, it's a DRY blog. I am convinced I am the only who reads it, so providing a space for comments is rather moot.

Secondly, I know there are loads of naysayers out there who do not necessarily agree to my decision to treat Jojo's inherent and chronic gastrointestinal issues with MMS.  I have read what all those on the other side of the divide have to say about it and I don't really want to hear the same broken record.  I have made my decision and as his mother I have a right to make it.  Everyone is entitled to their personal opinion, just that I would like them to keep it that way... personal, I have no need nor desire for them to share it with me. Ta very mooch.

Call me an ostrich if you will but when you rail against those who put chemotherapy drugs in children then perhaps I'd give you the time of day.  Prove to me that MMS given according to Kerri Rivera's protocol has actually HURT a child, then perhaps I might consider giving #teambleach my attention.

This is the last I am going to say about the matter but it needs to be said.

Enema:  20 drops in 1 litre

Sleep : Like a log

MMS : Day 11 ~ Yeast Flare?

11 drops activated MMS in 8 ozs water, total of 10 doses.

Observations:

I had to attend parent-training at Jojo's school again today, something we do every Friday.  I heard Jojo say "all done" very clearly for the first time once he had finished one of his tasks.

He was calm in the car on the way back, fussed a bit upon reaching home but quickly settled down.

Otherwise an uneventful day, just that towards the evening he began to get agitated. Pacing up and down and seeming rather agitated.

Sleep:

Tucked him into bed but another night where it was difficult for him to fall asleep. Took about 2 hours before he could fall asleep and when I woke up at 4 am and checked on him, he was up! Sitting in the dark in the bathroom.

Kinda creeped me out.

Took him back to bed and I tucked him back in.

MMS : Day 10 ~ Blowing In The Wind

10 drops of activated MMS in 8 ozs of water, total of 10 doses.

Observations:

I can count on the fingers of two hands how many times I have heard Jojo pass wind (out of his cute butt :D) Such a contrast from his two brothers who have never had any problems passing gas even from  early days after birth. Thank God for this because this meant none of them had any colic problems. I feel truly blessed not to have to deal with colicky babies then. (Thanks to minyak telon, too, which is essentially just minyak kayuputih or cajuput oil that I used to rub on their tums. I swear by this stuff for elimination of wind/gas in babies!)

Da absolute bomb, smells lovely together with baby powder too!

So, as I was lolling about with him this morning and heard a very subtle "poooot", I felt like marking it on my calendar! LOL  He gave me a huge grin after that, prolly knowing it's not quite the thing to cut the cheese so blatantly... AND feeling much more comfortable in his tummy after passing wind. (As mentioned in an earlier post, I haven't noticed much bloating of his tummy lately.)

No tantrums coming back from school again today, Alhamdulillah. 

Strangely he didn't want to spend time splashing in the bath tub today but chose to watch "The Little Mermaid" on a loop on his iPad. Must be all the marine... life in the video not so much for winsome redheads in shell-shaped bikini top and shimmering tail. LOL  Jojo does have a thang for everything that lives in water, though :P

Sleep:

Some probs falling asleep but didn't take long to succumb to arms of Hypnos.

MMS : Day 9 ~ Anxiety Gone?

9 drops activated MMS in 8 ozs of water, total of 10 doses.

Observations:

Jojo has always been a child who needs someone to be near to him all the time.  Poses quite a problem, even at school, because the therapist cannot leave the room for longer than 5 seconds without him throwing a tantrum.

I read that anxiety and nervousness is a symptom of parasites in the body.

*sigh*

However, today Jojo went downstairs to the empty guestroom all by himself and sat/lay there ALL BY HIMSELF for quite a while.  We were worried because we couldn't find him (he's usually sticking to any one of us like a burr :P) and we were pleasantly surprised to see him spending time by himself in the guestroom downstairs, happily occupying himself by stimming :P (finger/hand flapping and verbal stimming).  Didn't seem anxious to be by himself at all.

Even his father commented that this was something new about Jojo.  Alhamdulillah.

Fatimah, the maid who helps keep an eye on Jojo when I cannot, also commented that Jojo is much calmer than before.  No longer physically aggressive to her when he doesn't get his way. Alhamdulillah.

Good mood coming back from school too today, Alhamdulillah.

Sleep:

Slept very early at around 9:20pm.

Tools of the trade. I had to "deface" the gorgeous Schott Zwiesel lead-free crystal shot glass with stickers so I'd know exactly how much MMS mix (1 oz) to pour out at any one time ;D

Heartbreaking

Reading this broke my heart:

Chicago hospital locks down autistic patient

(Warning:  The photos that accompany the article are very difficult to look at.)

If this happens in the US of A where awareness and facilities for people with special needs are more developed than most countries in the world, what hope for us in these neck of the woods? 

:(

My heart goes out to Alex and his mother.  May Allah SWT make it easy for them both.

MMS : Day 8 ~ Semboyan Telah Berbunyi*

8 drops of activated MMS in 8 ozs of water, total of 10 doses.

Observations:

• Jojo woke up in a good mood today.  He was like a playful kitten the rest of the day, lots of smiles and cheeky antics.  
• Calm and languid as the past several days.  Didn't throw usual tantrum when he came back from school, Alhamdulillah.
• Stomach no longer bloated with gas.
• Sores from 'chronic eczema' (as per dermatologist's diagnosis, but I believe it's those danged parasites!) on his buttocks are healing and not recurring as per usual.
• Sores on legs persist because he keeps peeling off the scabs.

Sleep:

Fell asleep early in my bed but when I sent him to his room, helped him brush his teeth and tucked him into bed, he woke up again. Saw him get out of bed on the CCTV, went back to tuck him back in.  About 10 mins of whingeing and whining (again observed on CCTV) but then he fell asleep again, thank the Lord!

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*Semboyan Telah Berbunyi = The Klaxon call has been sounded

Today's post is titled the way it is because the "klaxon call" for enemas has been sounded.  I find even the mere thought of administering enemas on Jojo (who is now almost as tall as I am and as strong as an ox!) daunting as all get out.

However, I know it HAS to be done.  I feel like a total wuss for being daunted by the mere thought when I read on the MMS Autism Facebook group that there are wheelchair bound mums who manage to administer it on their late-teen children with autism.  So come on Z, wrestle with Jojo if you must but you have to get this done!

*deep inhale deep exhale*

I don't have the 140cc Kendall Monoject syringes and disposable catheters that I want from mightyguts.com ... YET... so I will have to go the more 'traditional' enema bag route.

Bought this kit from NewLife in Ampang Park, the oldest mall in the city. The size of that anal probe is kinda wigging me out at the mo'. I am not sure what Jojo will think :P

Jojo likes to loll about in the guest room downstairs, under his fave calming blanket.  Perhaps I'll do it there, put on some soothing sounds of nature whilst I'm at it.  (At school he has his "personal calming corner" where he has a blanket and some cushions and they put on soothing music and draw the curtains for him whenever things get a bit... overwhelming.)  Thankfully the guest room has an en suite bathroom 'coz if he can't hold it in, he can just quickly "let go" in the commode.

.... so here goes... menuju medan bakti!

(The title of this post is actually from a rousing song that is sung by our troops when they head out to the frontlines of war.. With everything happening in Lahad Datu, Sabah recently... [although in no way am I equating our troops' sacrifice and struggle to mine]... I guess I am feeling the 'war vibe'.)